Nothing like a pair of shorts to ruin your day.

12:00 AM

I had a really cute outfit planned out for yesterday.  It was one of those outfits that you lay out the night before and then smile about before you go to sleep because you're going to look oh-so-cute in it.  I paired mint shorts with a jade tank top and a sheer jade high-low button up.  I decided to throw on a pair of silver sandals and silver earrings to tie the look together.  When I woke up this morning, I pulled my shorts up and they got stuck around my thighs.  I refused to believe that this was happening, and I yanked them up.  To my disappointment, there was no way in hell I was going to be able to get the zipper up or get that button closed.

To say that the shorts incident ruined my day is an understatement.  I was running late as it was, so I put on running shorts and a frat tank instead.  The entire day I felt excessively self-conscious and restricted by my clothing and body.  I spent the entire day painfully aware of every time my body moved while I walked, and I absolutely refused to walk by a reflective surface for the majority of the day.  It sounds dramatic.  Perhaps I was over-reacting.  When you're unhappy, especially with your body, nothing seems like you're over-reacting.  I spent the entire day upset with myself and not wanting to talk to anyone.  Not exactly a healthy or productive reaction to my shorts not fitting, and I'll be the first to admit that.
As I went to get breakfast, I realized it was time for a change.  I skipped the bacon and the home fries, and opted for scrambled eggs and veggie sausage patties.  I chugged a glass of water and walked to the library.  While I was sitting there, I did some seated calf-raises to try to tone just a little bit while sitting down.  Throughout the day I tried to do little things like this, and I tried to make healthier choices.  I had a big salad for lunch, as well as half of a black bean burger and some potato chips.  During dinner I had a turkey sandwich and another salad.  I also did day one of the Blogilates Beginner's Calendar, as well as 10 minutes on a stationary bike.  It isn't a lot, I'll admit, but at least it's something.

The thing is, I can't let a pair of mint shorts ruin my day.  And I can't sit around and feel sorry for myself because I'm not taking care of my body.  That isn't going to solve anything.  I think that Kim K quote above is really motivational in such a practical way.  If you don't feel confident, then do something about it.  I don't know why it's always so hard for me to stay motivated when it comes to exercise, especially when I'm feeling unhappy about my appearance.  I act as if it's really that hard or that impossible to get out there and exercise, but it's not difficult at all.  I'm young, I'm healthy, and I do have the time.  While I make more excuses, I'm going to become more disappointed and I'm going to continue lacking confidence.  That's not how I want to live.  I want to feel comfortable with myself.  I want to get out there and do something.  Also, this is just another reason why I hate shorts.
substitute beer for fireball...
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